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Snowflake #5
This is the one for all the stuff I said wasn't right for the wishlist, isn't it? all the "I wish I could" and "I wish I had".
It does phrase it as "I wish I had the time/talent/energy to do the thing" and I'm going to lean away from that, because, honestly, I don't. I spend most of my evenings after work lately sitting under a warm blanket not doing much at all, and that's okay. I could rearrange my time and energy budget to use every last minute and every last spoon on 'being productive', if I really wanted to - I have, in the past, for stretches of a few months at least. (I even went on an extreme polyphasic sleep schedule for a few weeks once, two hours of sleep a day instead of ten - and it worked, I wasn't sleep-deprived, but also it was too much time in the day.) What I find is that I don't really like being the kind of person who has the energy and drive to be doing all the things all the time? It sounds exhausting and honestly not very much fun. Besides, if everybody spends all their time being productive there's nobody left to properly enjoy the things we're all making and doing for each other.
But that doesn't mean there aren't a bunch of things I wistfully wish I could do while still being a generally unambitious, lazy slacker.
I noticed that probably 90% of the snowflakes posts today include "I wish I could make this vid." Clearly there is a market for vids on demand!
Mine is still always first and mostest Doctor/Master to Paradise By The Dashboard Light. It would be such an amazing Lord King Bad Vid. "We got married as dumb kids and now we're stuck with each other until the end of time so I am going to do my best to hasten the end of time, but also I think I love you and we also have an inappropriate relationship with our vehicles and also the whole thing is just an extended sex scene even if it's never explicit" is just so 100% them. And you use the cricket game from Black Dahlia, totally non-sequitur, for the entire baseball sequence. And so much TARDIS porn. And shots of various people in Time Lord-level clothing showing an elbow or ankle for all the "barely seventeen and barely dressed" lines. I think you might have to do something clever with each set of regenerations looking back at the previous ones as the stupid kids they used to be. I will never, ever be the person who could do this, because even if I magically acquired vidding skill I will never be the person with the kind of brain that can pull footage from 700+ hours of canon, but, I still wish.
Also I would like to have finished even the tiniest fraction of the stories and art I've dreamed of.
Most of all though - and this one might actually happen someday - I would like to write at least one long, stereotypical, ordinary tropey romance fic of the kind I constantly read. The kind of thing that people are thinking of when they complain about how all fanfic is the same and there's too much of that? That kind of fic. I love reading them, the closest I have come to finishing one is If The Ever Put A Bullet Through Your Brain, I'll Complain but it's not even 20000 words and also the main character barely even interacts with the main love interest. I want to be able to go all in.
(Mind you, I say stereotypical, ordinary, but the kind of stuff I want to write is still stuff like "Jack and Thor get trapped in a computer simulation of the Asgard afterlife and have to find self-actualization, escape, and possibly save the Asgard race" and "it's a sort of Study in Emerald AU where everybody is concubines of eldritch horrors" and "Gideon/Harrow but it's Southern Gothic and they're all cold-water scuba divers" and "Clark Kent tells Lois he won't date her until she figures out his dark secret, so she decides to honeytrap Bruce Wayne for it" and "Post-CQL, Wei Wuxian accidentally sets himself up as YLP again, and all the minor sects panic, so LWJ declares they must sent a virgin sacrifice to pacify him, and he volunteers, and the other major sect leaders are so fed up they back him" and "Nick Fury and Peggy Carter's epic forbidden love affair and illegal marriage spanning eighty years" and "modern AU where Enjolras is aro/ace and Grantaire is akoiromantic - he prefers his love unreciprocated - and they end up moving in together and getting married and adopting some kids once they figure this out" and "they are trapped in a Canadian shack in a magic snowstorm and it's fuck or die only it won't work if Harry know it's fuck or die and *also* won't work if they lie to him" and "The AU where they are criminal masterminds but good ones" and "the one where they're pro baseball players and also there's a betting scandal" and "the one where it's the Magdelenian period and they paint caves" and "The one where they're Jedi" and "the one where their kid comes back from a dystopian alternate future only she's not actually their kid" and "the one where they have to find a fourth for their sedoretu but the obvious option is a vampire so nope" and "the femslash AU where all the female characters work at the aquarium and all the male characters are seabirds" and. there are more.)
Anyway. One of those. The ability to finish one ~50000-ish word fic like that. Would be nice. If only to pay forward all the many, many ones I have read.
I want to do all the indexing and tagging I said I'd do for last years' recs project. And all the other things I've said I'd do and let slide that still weigh on my mind and my to-do lists.
Also I would like to have updated my DW theme sometime in the past ten years. And to be able to code well enough to scrape my AO3 history. And to have the energy to run even a few of the communities I'd like to see on AO3 with even a fraction of the effort I'd need to do them justice, and to do a better job with what I've got. To be more active with OTW - not just actually keeping up with Tag Wrangling better, but also advocate harder for the changes I'd like to see, instead of just whining in comment threads sometimes. To be a better fandom friend - to comment more, to be better about replying and following up, to beta and alpha read, to keep up with people better, to never screw up and ruin relationships anymore, to do more to reach out and help and to let people in.
But mostly, I want to have made that Doctor Who vid.
It does phrase it as "I wish I had the time/talent/energy to do the thing" and I'm going to lean away from that, because, honestly, I don't. I spend most of my evenings after work lately sitting under a warm blanket not doing much at all, and that's okay. I could rearrange my time and energy budget to use every last minute and every last spoon on 'being productive', if I really wanted to - I have, in the past, for stretches of a few months at least. (I even went on an extreme polyphasic sleep schedule for a few weeks once, two hours of sleep a day instead of ten - and it worked, I wasn't sleep-deprived, but also it was too much time in the day.) What I find is that I don't really like being the kind of person who has the energy and drive to be doing all the things all the time? It sounds exhausting and honestly not very much fun. Besides, if everybody spends all their time being productive there's nobody left to properly enjoy the things we're all making and doing for each other.
But that doesn't mean there aren't a bunch of things I wistfully wish I could do while still being a generally unambitious, lazy slacker.
I noticed that probably 90% of the snowflakes posts today include "I wish I could make this vid." Clearly there is a market for vids on demand!
Mine is still always first and mostest Doctor/Master to Paradise By The Dashboard Light. It would be such an amazing Lord King Bad Vid. "We got married as dumb kids and now we're stuck with each other until the end of time so I am going to do my best to hasten the end of time, but also I think I love you and we also have an inappropriate relationship with our vehicles and also the whole thing is just an extended sex scene even if it's never explicit" is just so 100% them. And you use the cricket game from Black Dahlia, totally non-sequitur, for the entire baseball sequence. And so much TARDIS porn. And shots of various people in Time Lord-level clothing showing an elbow or ankle for all the "barely seventeen and barely dressed" lines. I think you might have to do something clever with each set of regenerations looking back at the previous ones as the stupid kids they used to be. I will never, ever be the person who could do this, because even if I magically acquired vidding skill I will never be the person with the kind of brain that can pull footage from 700+ hours of canon, but, I still wish.
Also I would like to have finished even the tiniest fraction of the stories and art I've dreamed of.
Most of all though - and this one might actually happen someday - I would like to write at least one long, stereotypical, ordinary tropey romance fic of the kind I constantly read. The kind of thing that people are thinking of when they complain about how all fanfic is the same and there's too much of that? That kind of fic. I love reading them, the closest I have come to finishing one is If The Ever Put A Bullet Through Your Brain, I'll Complain but it's not even 20000 words and also the main character barely even interacts with the main love interest. I want to be able to go all in.
(Mind you, I say stereotypical, ordinary, but the kind of stuff I want to write is still stuff like "Jack and Thor get trapped in a computer simulation of the Asgard afterlife and have to find self-actualization, escape, and possibly save the Asgard race" and "it's a sort of Study in Emerald AU where everybody is concubines of eldritch horrors" and "Gideon/Harrow but it's Southern Gothic and they're all cold-water scuba divers" and "Clark Kent tells Lois he won't date her until she figures out his dark secret, so she decides to honeytrap Bruce Wayne for it" and "Post-CQL, Wei Wuxian accidentally sets himself up as YLP again, and all the minor sects panic, so LWJ declares they must sent a virgin sacrifice to pacify him, and he volunteers, and the other major sect leaders are so fed up they back him" and "Nick Fury and Peggy Carter's epic forbidden love affair and illegal marriage spanning eighty years" and "modern AU where Enjolras is aro/ace and Grantaire is akoiromantic - he prefers his love unreciprocated - and they end up moving in together and getting married and adopting some kids once they figure this out" and "they are trapped in a Canadian shack in a magic snowstorm and it's fuck or die only it won't work if Harry know it's fuck or die and *also* won't work if they lie to him" and "The AU where they are criminal masterminds but good ones" and "the one where they're pro baseball players and also there's a betting scandal" and "the one where it's the Magdelenian period and they paint caves" and "The one where they're Jedi" and "the one where their kid comes back from a dystopian alternate future only she's not actually their kid" and "the one where they have to find a fourth for their sedoretu but the obvious option is a vampire so nope" and "the femslash AU where all the female characters work at the aquarium and all the male characters are seabirds" and. there are more.)
Anyway. One of those. The ability to finish one ~50000-ish word fic like that. Would be nice. If only to pay forward all the many, many ones I have read.
I want to do all the indexing and tagging I said I'd do for last years' recs project. And all the other things I've said I'd do and let slide that still weigh on my mind and my to-do lists.
Also I would like to have updated my DW theme sometime in the past ten years. And to be able to code well enough to scrape my AO3 history. And to have the energy to run even a few of the communities I'd like to see on AO3 with even a fraction of the effort I'd need to do them justice, and to do a better job with what I've got. To be more active with OTW - not just actually keeping up with Tag Wrangling better, but also advocate harder for the changes I'd like to see, instead of just whining in comment threads sometimes. To be a better fandom friend - to comment more, to be better about replying and following up, to beta and alpha read, to keep up with people better, to never screw up and ruin relationships anymore, to do more to reach out and help and to let people in.
But mostly, I want to have made that Doctor Who vid.
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Vids that I would gladly commission someone to make (if I could find someone willing):
Picard/Tea to the kinks "Have A Cuppa Tea"
Spock to "The Logical Song" by Supertramp
Goa'uld vid to "Jeepers Creepers"
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That is INCREDIBLE, thank you SO MUCH!
I am fine with any Spock version being included: TOS, animated series, AOS, Discovery, etc. TOS is my favorite, but they're all good and TOS doesn't have, for example, bb!Spock to fit lines like "When I was young ..."
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Somebody should organize a multifandom "Bid for the Vid" auction at some point, I wonder if you could get any volunteers.
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Yes, I feel this.
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(Basically: I gives Nick the Isaiah Bradley backstory - he was a WWII vet who was "volunteered" for an Army program trying to replicate the Super Soldier serum. They think it failed because Nick was smart enough - even before the serum - to fake all his test results. Peggy is involved in the wind-down/cover up of the program via SSR, and she was smart enough to realize what he'd done, and also smart enough to recruit him as a secret SHIELD operative instead of leaving him in the wind. And they fell in love. And we hit the part where I actually have to write the slow burn and lost steam, as usual.
Anyway they got married, but at the time it was still illegal in a large part of the US, plus nobody knew he worked for SHIELD yet, so it was a secret marriage, and even after Loving v. Virginia, and Nick officially working for SHIELD, they decided it was safer not to come out - everybody just knew that both of them had a spouse and kids that they kept away from their work - which started the tradition that later Hawkeye was part of. Then it flashes forward a lot to c. CAWS when Peggy is forgetting a lot of things and Nick still isn't getting older fast enough and he's just bitterly glad he can let her have Cap again even when she doesn't remember him, and there's nobody around to remind her.)
This is the backstory for several of the MCU fics I have up! It never really came up beyond extremely elliptical references, though.
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YES.
I played "guess which Harry" before clicking the link and guessed wrong ;)
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I actually have a WIP somewhere where Harry Callahan of Young Wizards gets to visit both Harry Dresden and Harry Potter for advice on raising a pile of wizard kids who keep saving the world. (It was five things so I must have had at least two more Harrys but I don't remember who they were.)
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I propose Harry Wilson from the New Leverage Of Which I Still Haven't Watched The Back Half Of That Season.
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TELL ME MORE
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But I think in that particular story I just thought, if I was going to write total idfic in an AU where everybody is morally bankrupt and has not hope of a better world, why not just use that one instead of making a new one up? (Our Hero has spend his life as a thrall, being passed from master to master and put to various jobs he refused to try very hard at, until one of them gets so fed up he puts him up dirt cheap for the sort of buyers who just want a concubine to use up, and honestly at that point he doesn't care anymore, but then it turns out the noble who bought him didn't want that, he was just under social pressure to get another concubine so he was looking for one who was dirt cheap and maybe had other useful skills, so Our Hero ends up mostly working as a handyman around the estate to keep busy except when there are high-ranking visitors, but then?? he realizes he actually wants to be a good concubine for this guy because he legit likes him? (possibly because the madness of being around all those high-ranking visitors is getting to him) and starts training up in concubine skills in secret. etc.
it is absolutely pure id, I'm not sure I'd have the courage to write it even if I had the skill! and I am very not in the fandom anymore. but I'd still love to be the kind of person who could have written it if I'd wanted to.)
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and that thoschei vid sounds impossibly awesome... emphasis on impossible, i guess. XD
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