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April 22nd, 2026 03:31 pm - The Secret Garden, April
Carey's Secret Garden in April 1

Weird weather. April is supposed to be changeable. All the weather - rain, hail, sunshine & rainbows - in the space of an hour. We're not supposed to have a high pressure system stuck overhead, no rain in prospect for the next week. And we're not supposed to have gale force winds blowing from the east. Proper gales are supposed to come in from the south-west, off the Atlantic, accompanied by lashing rain.

I thought it would be sheltered behind the high brick walls of the Secret Garden, but it wasn't - the flowers were all bobbing about madly, which made macro photography something of a challenge.

Blurred flowers... )

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April 22nd, 2026 01:00 pm - Flotsam Plops

Posted by Jen

The concept is simple: take an otherwise passable cake, and then stick a completely unrelated piece (or pieces) of plastic flotsam on it. Voila! Flotsam plop.

Oh, and when I say "completely unrelated," I mean "completely unrelated."

And lo, unto us a carrot cake is borne.
And high, we suspecteth the Wreckerator was. Eth.

Look, this carrot cake was doing just fine without divine accompaniment - so why the plastic angel pick? Did the Wreckerator think that was actually helping, or was s/he meeting some flotsam distribution quota?

 

Care to pick a pack of plops?

The migrating guitar herd strikes again.

 

Here's how you pander to fanboys and fangirls everywhere:

No, no, it's not a blue dog - it's a BAT dog. Sha-pow!

 

Plus, that upside-down bat logo tells us he sticks to the ceiling!

Bringing "downward facing dog" to new heights.

 

Perhaps you don't think these examples have been ridiculous enough, though. Nooo problem. What would you say to Dora the Explorer's head stuck in another doll cake's lap?

Go ahead. Try and imagine that's just the world's largest, creepiest belt buckle.

Personally, I'd say "Hola, Dora! S-O-C-K-S!" Because that's all the Spanish I know. I never learned what it means, though, so here's hoping it's not something dirty. (Although, frankly, that might be appropriate here.)

I have some thoughts about the snowman in the gal's lap behind Dora, too, but for all our sakes I'll leave that to you guys in the comments.

 

So, just how bad is the flotsam plop epidemic getting?

This bad:

Because even cake sold by-the-slice needs accessorizing.
And Superman beats everybody at bowling.

 

Katrina S., Lisa K., Dawn, Frzn D., & Jane D., "flotsam plops" is officially my new favorite phrase. Flotsamplopsflotsamplopsflotsamplops. Heehee!

*****

P.S. Here's one of the coolest gift ideas I've seen for a Batman fan, also works great for anniversities, aniverys, and bat mitzvahs. (See what I did there?))

Leather Bat Key Fob Case

How awesome is this?

*****

And from my other blog, Epbot:


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bluapapilio
April 22nd, 2026 09:15 am - April Manga Wrap-Up 6
 

 
 Read On Doorstep and rated it 7.5/10. 

 Read ch. 19-24 of Men of the Harem

 Dropped Kashikomarimashita, Destiny, I was not feeling it by chapter 3 and it probably would've only got like a 6 out of me if I'd continued.

 Read Fuck Buddy and rated it 8/10! 

 Read ch. 5 of Chess Isle.

 Read ch. 77 of Blue Exorcist!

 Read Brand-new ♡ Start, rated it 6.5/10.

 Read Mine and rated it 3.5/5.

 Read 2 ch. of Junjou Romantica.

 Read A Room with No Windows, rated it 9/10!! 

 Read ch. 8 of Shugo Chara!

 Read Kimetsu no Yaiba ch. 182-183.

 Read ch. 7 of Witch Hat Atelier!

 Finished volume 2 of BASARA.

 Read ch. 7 of Touken Ranbu Anthology: SquEni Formation!

 Read volume 1 of Otoko ga Otoko wo Aisuru Toki, rated it 6.3/10. 

 Read ch. 11-13 of Wizardly Tower.

 Read chapter 175-176 of Wind Breaker!

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prettygoodword
April 22nd, 2026 07:12 am - psithurism
psithurism (SITH-yuh-riz-uhm) - (obs.) the sound of wind rustling the leaves.


Why someone would import this (in 1848 from Ancient Greek psithurisma, from psithurízein, to whisper) when we already had the clearly much better word susurration is beyond me. What's not beyond me is why it never really caught on, except in lists of obscure words.

---L.

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April 22nd, 2026 02:15 pm - Magic by Return of Post: How Mail Order Delivered the Occult

What allowed occultism to blossom in the United States at the turn of the 20th century? Linotype machines, cheap pulp paper, and newly improved postal networks. Allan Johnson investigates the forgotten history and (still living) world of mail-order magic.


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April 22nd, 2026 02:13 pm - Pulex irritans: The Attack of the Monster (1885)

Lantern slide of man battling bug.


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smokingboot
April 22nd, 2026 02:27 pm - Gorgeous
This feels like Spring proper. The blooms are just beginning to show, and the air holds the here and now of it, fresh but not cold, warming but not still. The season has arrived. So I opened the kitchen door and left it that way; Dervish and her sister went out, enjoyed themselves, lifted their heads to the light and heat, jumped up walls, investigated the greenery. I remember last year when the vet made stern sounds about Biggie's future, and here she is still. So we do what we do and our girl will have her beautiful days. If it's the last Spring, we love every minute, if she makes it to Summer even better. And who knows? We only really have now. Turns out now is gorgeous.

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April 22nd, 2026 11:30 am - From One to Many

Posted by Roxi Wessel


Fifty years ago, the notion of Ireland as one of the leading countries on transgender recognition would have been laughable. Born of Catholic nationalism and with bans on divorce, abortion, and homosexuality, modern Ireland was not exactly a paragon of progressivism, and the majority of the country “did not even know what the word ‘trans’ meant” by the 1990s.[1] One Irish woman, Dr. Lydia Foy, sought to change that in 1993 when she petitioned the Irish state to change the gender marker on her birth certificate to an F from the M she had been assigned at birth. Although the Irish public was initially confused by and resistant to the idea of altering such an official document, Dr. Foy’s case set off a series of petitions, opinion pieces, and protests that eventually resulted in the Gender Recognition Act (GRA) in 2015. The Act has allowed transgender people to alter the names and gender markers on their birth certificates to reflect their true identities since its passage.

Even with Dr. Foy’s victory, there remains a dearth of scholarship on transgender issues in Ireland. The influence of activism in shaping the legislative and public landscape is particularly understudied.[2] It is true that Dr. Foy initially spearheaded the GRA by forcing the Dáil (the lower house of Ireland’s parliament) to confront its commitment to human rights in the face of its dismissal of trans people. However, grassroots organizers also played a significant role in the bill’s development, pressuring the Dáil to make the Act “the best it could be” before passing it.[3] I argue that this combination of individual agency and grassroots support propelled the Act as we know it over the finish line in 2015; both the legal and social phases of this process must be examined to uncover the shifting public perception of trans issues in Ireland and potential future pathways for more inclusive legislation.

A woman speaking at a microphone in front of a banner reading Summer School.
Dr. Lydia Foy at a 2015 conference held by the Irish political party Sinn Féin. (Courtesy Sinn Féin, CC BY 2.0)

Turning first to the legal phase, Dr. Foy’s continued attempts to alter her birth certificate not only raised awareness of the fight for gender recognition but eventually made it a legal necessity. Dr. Foy first petitioned the General Registrar of Ireland to alter her birth certificate in 1993, one year after she had socially and medically transitioned.[4] When the Registrar denied her request, she brought the decision before the Irish High Court, which was “compassionate” towards Dr. Foy but ultimately ruled that the Irish Constitution did not require the Registrar to acknowledge her gender.[5] Dr. Foy was thus the first openly trans person to petition for a birth certificate change in Irish history.

Her case was given new life just one year later when the Dáil passed the European Convention on Human Rights (ECHR) Act, incorporating the findings of the ECHR into Irish law – including a recent UK ruling which found that neglecting to recognize an individual’s preferred gender was “no longer sustainable.”[6] Dr. Foy subsequently reopened her proceedings in 2003, now arguing that refusing to change her birth certificate violated ECHR precedent. Sure enough, in 2007, the Court found that the State had breached the Convention guidelines and issued its first-ever Declaration of Incompatibility between the Irish Constitution and the ECHR, creating a legal obligation for Ireland to revise its stance on gender recognition.[7] Dr. Foy’s fight inspired other trans trailblazers to take their grievances to court as well, notably Louise Hannon, who secured legal protections for transgender people in the workplace through a discrimination suit, which became the 2011 case Hannon v First Direct.[8] Michael Farrell, Dr. Foy’s legal representative, said it best: “Without Lydia, there would be no Gender Recognition Act.”[9]

Socially, the tide began to turn away from a concerted individual effort and towards a broader movement in the aftermath of the second Foy decision. Transgender Equality Network Ireland (TENI), founded in 2006, immediately took up Dr. Foy’s campaign. Founder Sara Phillips recalls going door-to-door to discuss the GRA with both government officials and ordinary citizens as the concept of gender recognition gained more traction.[10] LGBT community groups in Cork and Dublin also quickly joined the fight, organizing town halls and advocating for recognition in the media in an effort to shift public perceptions of trans people from the ground up.[11]

This collaboration resulted in TENI’s publication of Touching the Surface, a book of written and visual art submitted by trans Irish people in the interest of “writing [themselves] into existence” in 2012.[12] The collection includes contributions from TENI members, volunteers at trans peer support groups, and unaffiliated trans individuals, many of whom express hopes about “getting an accurate birth certificate” and note that they are “still waiting for gender recognition legislation.”[13] The book’s public launch by the Dublin City Council and its inclusion in university libraries, such as that of Technological University Dublin, introduced new readers to the necessity of this legislation and kept the subject alive in popular discourse.[14] Magazine reports about the Act credit these groups alongside “countless” politicians and human rights organizations for the GRA’s success, claiming that there was “not enough space to list everyone who worked so tirelessly and passionately.”[15]

A person holds a sign reading Screw Your Assimilation We Want Trans Liberation.
A poster at the first Dublin Trans Pride, 2018. (Courtesy Wikimedia)

Activists also, however, had to contend with a wave of anti-trans backlash. Some opposition came from individual critics, who made largely emotional arguments. One 2007 opinion piece called the Foy decision “simply absurd,” and another accused the State of “falsifying birth cert[ificates]” in a move that was “insane and should be recognized as such.”[16] Catholic-aligned organizations such as Genspect Ireland held a more concrete rhetorical front, claiming that the GRA was “an egregious attempt to hoodwink citizens […] into adopting legislation that most would consider at best dubious, at worst sinister and dangerous.”[17] Thus, what started as an individual’s protracted fight for legal recognition of her gender quickly became a topic of national conversation and debate. In addition to the transphobic rhetoric permeating the media, in 2011, the Irish government chose to recruit only cisgender civil servants for the Gender Recognition Advisory Group (GRAG) in a move many organizers called “shocking.”[18] Consequently, the 2011 GRAG report proposed several conditions of gender recognition that were widely opposed within the trans community, including a mandatory diagnosis of “Gender Identity Disorder,” compulsory divorce, and the exclusion of minors under 16 from legal recognition – all of which were included in early drafts of the GRA.[19]

Activists took advantage of the media presence that TENI and other organizations had curated to show their opposition to these requirements. A magazine article from early 2015 claimed that the bill “[fell] short of human rights standards” and would “stigmatize [the trans] community” if passed with the diagnosis requirement in place.[20] Young trans people expressed the same sentiment – when interviewed for the Gay Community Newsletter, Toryn, a student in Dublin, said that any bill which her “15 year-old friends, non-binary friends and married friends can’t avail of [is] going to deal with such a tiny proportion of us that I don’t think it’s fair to take it up.”[21] Organized opposition to these provisions also emerged, from a conversation hosted by the Irish Centre for Human Rights to a rally outside Leinster House, the seat of Ireland’s parliament.[22] Through these efforts, organizers were able to persuade the Dáil to drop the medical diagnosis and compulsory divorce requirements, the latter of which was rendered irrelevant by the passage of the marriage equality referendum in May of 2015.[23] Thus, the role of grassroots organizing in shaping the GRA to better fit the needs of Ireland’s trans community cannot be overstated.

It has been 11 years since the passage of the GRA in Ireland, but the conversations Dr. Foy started in 1993 are far from over. Ireland still does not have a process for legally recognizing the identities of transgender people under 16, and even those who are 16 and 17 face a long process that requires parental consent. Nonbinary and intersex individuals were completely excluded from the GRA and consequently lack a path to legal recognition to this day. Additionally, even with trans legislation on the books and the decline of Catholic influence since the turn of the twenty-first century, trans activists and individuals still face harassment from anti-trans organizations that see them as a threat to public morality.

This is an incomplete retelling of gender recognition in Ireland by necessity – clearly, the cogs are still turning. It is vital to study the fight grassroots organizers took over from Dr. Foy, not only to celebrate how far Ireland has come but also to map potential pathways to promote gender recognition both legally and socially in the coming years. Although the catalyst for the GRA was the case of one individual, grassroots support was crucial to its eventual passage – and it will be equally important in expanding the scope of the bill in the future.

Notes

  1. “What A Beautiful Day,” Gay Community News, September 2015, 27.
  2. The scholarship that exists around trans issues in Ireland, notably contributions by Joanne Cognahan, Peter Dunne, Leoni Leonard, Tanya Ní Mhuirthile, and the Free Legal Advice Centres (FLAC) of Dublin, overwhelmingly focuses on the legal status of trans people as a proxy for how public perception of them shifts over time; in fact, Dunne and FLAC focus almost exclusively on the Foy case. Conaghan displays some awareness of the role of social factors in shifting conceptions of gender, but does not specifically examine the role of public activism in this process.
  3. “What A Beautiful Day,” 27.
  4. Deborah Ballard, “Gender discontents,” Gay Community News, March 1998, 16.
  5. Peter Dunne, “The Law Concerning Trans Persons in Ireland,” in Trans Rights and Wrongs: A Comparative Study of Legal Reform Concerning Trans Persons, ed. Isabel C. Jaramillo and Laura Carlson, (Cham: Springer International Publishing, 2021), 494; Tanya Ní Mhuirthile, “Gender Identity, Intersex and Law in Ireland,” in Law and Gender in Modern Ireland: Critique and Reform, ed. by Lynsey Black and Peter Dunne (Oxford: Hart Publishing Ltd, 2019), 192. See the ruling of Foy v. Registrar General of Births, Deaths, and Marriages (No 1) for more information.
  6. Leoni Leonard,“Accommodating Gender Diversity in Modern Ireland: A Proposal for the Reform of the Gender Recognition Act 2015,” University of Galway Law Review 2 (2023): 153.
  7. Tanya Ní Mhuirthile, “Building Bodies: A Legal History of Intersex in Ireland,” in Sexual Politics in Modern Ireland, ed. by Jennifer Redmond, Sonja Tiernan, Sandra McAvoy, and Mary McAuliffe (Newbridge: Irish Academic Press, 2015), 2; Allison Bray, “Transsexual wins landmark case after 10-year battle,” Irish Independent (Dublin), October 20, 2007. See the ruling of Foy v An t-Ard Chláraitheoir & Ors for more information.
  8. Dunne, “The Law Concerning Trans Persons in Ireland,” 496.
  9. “European Citizens Prize for Athlone native,” Westmeath Independent, October 3, 2015.
  10. Sara Phillips in discussion with the author, January 2026.
  11. “What A Beautiful Day,” 24.
  12. Transgender Equality Network Ireland (TENI), Touching the Surface: Trans Voices in Ireland (Dublin: TENI, 2012), 5.
  13. Transgender Equality Network Ireland (TENI), Touching the Surface, 20; 41; 68.
  14. Transgender Equality Network Ireland (TENI), Touching the Surface, 4.
  15. “What A Beautiful Day,” 24.
  16. Kevin Myers, “Rewriting history cannot fix nature’s cruel twist of fate,” Irish Independent (Dublin), October 23, 2007; David Quinn, “Gormley and colleagues get away with blue murder,” Irish Independent (Dublin), June 25, 2010.
  17. Catherine Monaghan, “Ireland’s Gender Recognition Act – Part 1,” Genspect, May 26, 2025, https://genspect.org/irelands-gender-recognition-act-part-1/.
  18. Dunne, “The Law Concerning Trans Persons in Ireland,” 295-6; Jimmy Goulding, “Positive Thinking,” Gay Community News, September 2013, 37.
  19. Free Legal Advice Centres, “Briefing note on the Lydia Foy case: Foy v An t-Ard Chláraitheoir & Ors” (legal briefing, Dublin, 2015), 2; Ní Mhuirthile, “Gender Identity, Intersex and Law in Ireland,” 194.
  20. Broden Giambrone, “Opinion: Broden Giambrone,” Gay Community News, February 2015, 18.
  21. Kay Cairns, “The Bill & Us,” Gay Community News, March 2015, 21.
  22. Clarke, “What a Queer Year!”, 20; Brian Finnegan, “Editor’s Letter,” Gay Community News, March 2015, 3.
  23. Dunne, “The Law Concerning Trans Persons in Ireland,” 496. Ireland’s marriage equality referendum, which passed just months before the GRA, amended the Irish Constitution to permit marriage between two people “without distinction” as to their sex. A married person transitioning inherently creates a married same-gender couple, which would have remained illegal under Irish law had the marriage equality referendum not passed.

Featured image caption: The Transgender Equality Network Ireland marches in the Dublin Pride Parade, 2010. (Courtesy Wikimedia)


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felis
April 22nd, 2026 02:49 pm - Perfect Days - In Space!?
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bluapapilio
April 22nd, 2026 08:04 am - 🌈BL Manga Check-in: "Otoko ga Otoko wo Aisuru Toki" volume 1
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April 22nd, 2026 12:00 am - t-rex in: mistakes were made
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April 22nd, 2026: Beats me why some dudes make mistakes. Sure as hell ain't my scene!!

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April 22nd, 2026 08:57 am - Ny | Rubynye | MinoanMiss | browngirl's cause of death - COVID-19
Covid: Speaking Out About Rubynye by [archiveofourown.org profile] werpiper on AO3.

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summerstorm
April 22nd, 2026 02:37 pm - so I started yapping and this got long
Nightmares upon nightmares again, and earlier than usual. When I dragged myself out of sleep, it wasn't even 11 AM. Not crazy about this. I had some Monster before I showered -- I also made my mom shower before I showered -- and Gorgug did curl up under the sheets with me, briefly. Poor thing was extremely confused because yesterday I changed my sheets and folded up my winter blanket (left around just in case, I'm not that optimistic), and then slept with a smaller blanket and ended up kicking it off anyway.

My sister's been hogging the washing machine since Saturday and it seems like it may or may not rain this or that day over the next few days, so I probably need to steel myself for doing a quick load when she leaves later, so I'm sure to have clothes to wear (that I like and are comfortable... if you looked at my closet you'd be like, what the fuck, but unfortunately my cold/cool weather rota does not encompass even half of that, and it is still cool enough indoors for long sleeves) on Saturday. If I can, I'd also like to start individually washing that winter blanket, the charcoal gray blanket I'm currently using, my green winter coat, and my house shoes. Either pair. Though I may throw the one I haven't been wearing in the trash at this point, god knows how many times Ciri's peed on them by now.

Ciri was in heat last week and I was exhausted the whole time, to the point that I felt drunk when I went to the store Saturday morning. It was kind of funny because my mom had been hypocritically side-eying my picking up 5% abv cocktails in a can the day before, but also: not pleasant. I'm slowly recovering from that, but the nightmares aren't helping. Neither are the bouts of depression.

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I've been experimenting with extremely low-grade alcohol for a couple of weeks -- and by low I mean "I don't think this counts as breaking sobriety," because the tipsiest I've felt has been 'unexpectedly happy,' twice -- to see how my body takes to it now it's been off it for three years, and also so I could try a drink I saw at Primaprix that looked right up my alley except for the 5% abv. It was delicious. They no longer stock it, of course. More chatter about this. )

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Three episodes behind on The Pitt, caught up on 9-1-1 (Buck ;__;) and decided to finish 9-1-1 Lone Star for some reason. I have two episodes left and I assume they're gonna make me cry again so I've been putting it off a bit. This show is a telenovela. For all the NDEs in 9-1-1, at least you can kind of assume things will turn out okay, with one glaring exception. Season 4 of Lone Star was just melodramatic hit after hit, and Judd has been depressing in season 5. Carlos, too, to some extent. I do still really love Nancy and Marjan though. And TK and Carlos's relationship. And Paul. Ramble/rant, with spoilers. )

Anyway. I am trying to convince my brain mice to let me do things. I just wanna make maps and edit pictures and the mice are like, "what's that? We don't know how to open an editor suddenly." I'm halfway through Trespasser on Dragon Age: Inquisition, where I am missing most of the trophies for some reason? I'm pretty sure I did the DLC last time, but who knows. It was 2020. I accidentally locked myself out of a bunch of companion quests, but I'm just not putting myself through this game again. It would be so goddamn replayable if combat wasn't so tedious. I have it on easy! It should not take this long to defeat a bunch of bandits! At this point if they had an accessibility 'one-shot enemies' option I would take it. Goddamn. Let me shoot them in the head. Let me shoot them dead in the head, specifically. At least Veilguard let me aim.

I'm very pleased I made a guy and experienced the Dorian romance, though. He is just delightful.

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April 22nd, 2026 07:00 am - A ‘Barbaric’ Problem in American Hospitals Is Only Getting Bigger

Posted by Elisabeth Rosenthal

In the last months, weeks, and days of his life, “I will not go to the emergency room” became my husband’s mantra. Andrej had esophageal cancer that had spread throughout his body (but not to his ever-willful brain), and, having trained as a doctor, I had jury-rigged a hospital at home, aided by specialists who got me pills to boost blood pressure; to dampen the effects of liver failure; to stem his cough; to help him swallow, wake up, fall asleep.

“I will not go to the emergency room”—emphasis on not—were his first words after passing out, having a seizure, or regurgitating the protein smoothies I made to pass his narrowed esophagus. He said it again and again, even as fluid built up in his lungs, rendering him short of breath and prone to agonizing coughing spells. He had been a big, athletic guy, but now, in the ugly process of dying, he was looking gaunt. Ours was a precarious existence, but I understood his adamant rejection of the emergency department. Most prior visits had morphed into extended trips into a terrifying medical underworld—to a purgatory known as emergency-department boarding.

I managed to keep Andrej at home while we planned for hospice, until one dreadful night at 2 a.m., when I ran out of hacks. We got into an ambulance and headed together to the hospital.

We had already learned the hard way that if you need admission to the hospital, you can remain in the emergency department—in the hallway or a curtained bay on a hard stretcher or in a makeshift holding area—for more than 24 hours, even for days, while waiting for a real hospital bed. In this limbo state, you’re technically admitted to the hospital but still located in the physical domain of the ER. And the rules governing acceptable care and safety measures become much less clear.

In the summer of 2024, still being treated to keep his cancer at bay, Andrej had suddenly become somewhat delirious, requiring hospital admission to rule out the possibility of infection or, worse, of the cancer having spread to his brain. After we went to an emergency department near our home, in New York City, he lay trapped on a hard stretcher, with its rails up, for more than 36 hours, amid the alarms and calls for the code team, without any clues of whether it was day or night, and with access only to the few toilets shared by the dozens of patients and visitors in the emergency room. None of this helped his mental state. By the end of day two, he knew me—kind of—but had become convinced that the doctors were “the enemy” and that I was their paid accomplice.

After I pressed to move him to a bed “upstairs”—I meant to an inpatient ward—he was transported to a bed five floors higher. I realized too late that this was an “ED overflow area,” according to the paper sign attached to the entrance’s swinging door. A plaque in the hall identified it as a former labor and delivery floor. It had been kitted out with some of the trappings of an actual ward, such as real beds and bathrooms, but not the most important one: adequate personnel.

The space was by turns eerily quiet and wildly cacophonous. Although patients there were undergoing intimate, embarrassing procedures, rooms were gender-neutral. That first night, Andrej’s roommates were a man in a coma and an elderly French woman in a diaper and boots (no pants), who marched around her bed singing like a chanteuse. In the morning, I pestered a harried nurse and got Andrej moved to a quieter room with three beds, where two people died in three days.

The overworked staff did the best they could, but that was far from good care. My husband—who needed protein and calories but could consume only soft foods—was served chicken cutlets. When I noted to one nurse that Andrej’s soiled sheets hadn’t been changed for several days, she directed me to a linen cart so I could change them myself.

That first time, one of several extended ER stays Andrej made as a boarder, I thought perhaps we had just hit a busy time at a busy hospital. When I worked as an emergency-medicine doctor a few decades ago, the ED was mostly empty at the beginning of my 7 a.m. shift. A few patients might be lingering from the day before: alcoholics who would sober up and leave, patients with a severe burn or a bad case of pneumonia who were waiting for a bed in intensive care.

In the decades since, EDs have doubled or even tripled in size. Even so, patients are piling up. When I started asking around, I quickly discovered that ED boarding has become commonplace in the past five or so years and is getting worse, more or less omnipresent in hospitals. “Everyone knows about this problem, and no one cares enough to do anything about it,” Adrian Haimovich, an ED doctor at Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center who studies ED boarding, told me. “It’s barbaric.”

Measuring the problem has been challenging because data on ED-boarding time are limited. Only this past November did the Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services finalize a rule that would require hospitals to collect data on ED-boarding times, starting in 2026. Using what other data he could find, Haimovich has shown that boarding for more than 24 hours has increased dramatically for people 65 and older since the coronavirus pandemic.

Once they enter ED boarding, patients exist in a gray zone. There has been a national push to establish “safe staffing” nurse-to-patient ratios in EDs. Even with that, if an ED boarder has a medical complaint that needs quick attention, it’s easy for them to fall through the cracks, Haimovich said: In some hospitals, an admitting team of doctors from upstairs is responsible for the boarders stuck in the ED (but not the associated floor nurses); in others, overstretched ED medical staff must take full responsibility to care for boarders until a bed opens—and that in addition to seeing new patients. Some EDs now routinely hold more boarders—many of them quite ill—than patients being actively evaluated.

Doctors and nurses have complained bitterly about the situation, which forces them to provide inadequate care. Gabe Kelen, the director of emergency medicine at Johns Hopkins University, told me that it’s creating a moral hazard for emergency-department staff. But doctors and department heads such as Kelen are not in control of admissions. Generally, a hospital’s administration parcels out inpatient beds, and emergency-department boarding is in many ways a result of today’s business models and pressures.

     

When I worked as a doctor, if an ED was overwhelmed beyond capacity, the attending (that was me) typically called in to ambulance dispatch to request “diversion”—ambulances should take patients to another hospital. If a hospital got too full, the admitting office canceled elective admissions. Today, hospitals run like airlines and intentionally overbook, Kelen said. They also have fewer beds than they did a few years ago—in part because nurse (and executive) salaries have risen since the pandemic. An empty, staffed bed is a money loser, so the institution has an incentive to keep beds full and make new patients wait.

“The problem isn’t inefficiency—it’s the way health-care finance is structured,” Kelen said. “Hospitals typically run on thin margins. Elective admissions are prioritized because they tend to be for lucrative procedures like heart catheterizations and joint replacements.”

Admitting patients through the emergency room has business advantages too, even if it means that patients wait for a bed. The evaluation generates charges that typically run many thousands of dollars; once admitted, my husband was still billed the inpatient rate even for a stretcher in the hall. Old, sick, and dying patients are more likely to linger there in part because, after they’re in a real bed, they may take up that spot for days or weeks at a time while waiting for a bed in rehab or hospice, requiring nursing time but not the types of interventions that generate revenue.

Hospitals have tried Band-Aid fixes, such as bed-tracking software and discharge lounges where patients can wait for paperwork or transport home. Many do hire more doctors and nurses and orderlies in the ER to confront the overflow. “Long ED wait times and boarding have root causes that extend far beyond EDs and hospitals themselves,” Chris DeRienzo, the chief physician executive at the American Hospital Association, told me in an email. He listed the high cost of opening beds and the shortage of rehabilitation facilities, and emphasized the precarious financial situation of many hospitals.

But while Andrej waited in the overflow area, we were not thinking of any bigger picture: He was sick, desperate, and still waiting for care. He lingered in boarding for four days before he got a bed. Each time he had to return to the ED, each time he faced a painful wait, he hardened his resolve to never go back.

Thunk. Crash. “Elisabeth, help!” Those were the sounds that woke me at 2 a.m.

I had fallen asleep in our bed, next to Andrej, his head raised with a foam wedge to ease his breathing and make sure food would not come up. Before I dozed off, I listened to his breathing—30 times a minute, two times faster than normal—a sign that he was struggling to get sufficient oxygen. And that racking cough. This was not good.

Now his bruised body was twisted, lying on the floor with his head against the bed frame. He’d attempted to use his walker to go to the bathroom. He was complaining of chest pain, coughing and short of breath. But he managed to get out those words: “I will not go to the ER.”

I knelt by his side in tears, telling him that I loved him but that I could not do anything more right now at home. Carlos, our super, helped me get him into bed and called EMS. I promised Andrej (against hope) that, given his condition, he would surely be quickly assigned to a real room and bed.

What happened next was a blur. I have a vague memory of paramedics arriving, putting him on the stretcher, sliding him into the ambulance, giving him oxygen. I mechanically grabbed his “do not resuscitate” form from under the refrigerator magnet and buckled myself in beside him.

Then he was in the ED, which was thrumming with activity, under the fluorescent lights, with oxygen in his nose, wearing a hospital gown, looking gray and sick. The staff asked what was, for them, the operative question about a guy with widespread cancer: “Does he have a DNR?” Andrej asked me what was, for him, the operative question: “Did you bring my shoes?” He already wanted to leave.

An X-ray showed possible pneumonia, more tumors, and a buildup of fluid in his lungs. A medical team that covers oncology patients wrote an admitting note—he was now a boarder, again—and then retreated upstairs. They started antibiotics and gave him something to help him sleep amid the alarms and shouting. He didn’t.

When I came back the next morning—and two mornings after that—I was alarmed to see him still there on a hard stretcher, his feet dangling off the end, exhausted and in pain. “When will he be admitted to a bed?’’ I implored. If some of the stuff in his lungs was infectious, maybe he could be treated and get home.

Likely soon and I hear your frustration—I came to detest those two phrases.

Neighboring patients came and went 24 hours a day. Some were pleasant; some were screaming in pain or just screaming mad. Pulmonary doctors came and, in this semipublic space, used a large needle to remove three liters of fluid from Andrej’s right lung cavity.

Near the end of the Biden administration, in response to a bipartisan congressional request, the Department of Health and Human Services convened a meeting on emergency-department boarding. Its report, from HHS’s Agency for Healthcare Research and Quality, came out the same month that the Trump administration took office, not long before Andrej’s fall—the last night he spent at home.

“Emergency department (ED) boarding is a public health crisis in the United States,” the report concluded. “Patients who are sick enough to require inpatient care can wait in the ED for hours, days, or even weeks … Boarding contributes to increased mortality, medical errors, prolonged hospital stays, and greater dissatisfaction with care.”

The meeting proposal called for the formation of an expert panel to recommend solutions. In theory, a panel could have weighed in on key questions: Should hospitals—some of which are rich institutions—get paid an inpatient rate for boarding in the ED? Should they have to report boarding times and face penalties for excess? Should they be required to open more real beds, and should requirements for licensing be lessened? How can the country create more rehabilitation beds?

But since then, the Trump administration has dramatically cut that HHS agency’s staffing, as well as its grant programs. (Congress is still pushing to fund the agency.) The expert panel never formed, let alone offered solutions. The Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services did initiate a program this year that will include voluntary reporting of boarding times in 2027, which will become mandatory in 2028. Bad marks will eventually affect Medicare reimbursement.

In an emailed statement, the Joint Commission, which certifies the nation’s hospitals, called boarding a “serious public health crisis” and “one of the most incredibly complex challenges in healthcare.” Although the organization does indirectly look at hospitals’ “ED throughput” from charts, such data are not comprehensive. Little information exists, for instance, about how many people’s last days are spent on stretchers, in hospital limbo.

None of this knowledge would have helped my dying husband. So I did what I’d promised myself I’d never do: I called a doctor friend, who called the hospital’s VIP office.

Suddenly Andrej was whisked to a real hospital room, with a bed that he could adjust to keep his head elevated, a tray he could eat from, a morphine pump, a TV, a bathroom, and a nurse call button at his side. A room with extra chairs, so his stepkids and friends could visit with gifts and mementos one last time. A room where the caring staff placed a chaise longue, where I could sleep over. That way, when he woke scared and coughing and yelling for me, I was there to hold his hand, adjust the oxygen, and push the button for an extra dose of narcotic.

Until, six days after we got in the ambulance and three days after we’d moved to this room, he woke early one morning, agitated and coughing, calling out, “Elisabeth?” I was there. But then, in a blink, he wasn’t.


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April 22nd, 2026 11:00 am - Horse first

Posted by Patricia Wrede

If you want to make a living in the arts, there are always two things you have to worry about: how to create the best art you can (whether it’s a physical product like a book or painting, or something more ephemeral like a live performance), and

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sabotabby
April 22nd, 2026 07:04 am - Reading Wednesday
Just finished: Nothing.

Currently reading: Here Where We Live Is Our Country by Molly Crabapple. This is a weirdly dense book—like, not in terms of content but in terms of typography where it turns out to be much longer than it looks. So it will take awhile and I'll no doubt have very scattered thoughts on it. I'm up to a weird point just before WWII where Piłsudski has done a coup in Poland and provided some kind of respite for the Bund there, while Molly's great-great grandfather Sam is in the US, trying to make it as an artist. The revolution in Russia has almost immediately turned sour. The Zionist movement is ascendant in Eastern Europe but still looked on as profoundly unserious by the Bundist majority, who are like, "you're going to be farmers in the desert? Good luck with that and also fuck you." 

This is just such an important book, right now in our history with what was once the biggest current of socialist thought in Europe being whittled down to a few of us hobbyists in 2026. It's not just hereness, but a lineage that I think most Ashkenazi Jews are lacking, even ones like me who know a fair bit about the Bund. The majority of Jews in the West have accepted the Devil's bargain of whiteness: give up your culture for safety and assimilation into the power structure, sure celebrate your holidays but now you're part of the dominant culture. There have been times, watching the livestreamed genocide of Gaza, that I have thought, "well, can I just not be Jewish anymore? I want no part of it, I want to wash my hands of it, I cannot participate if this is what most of us feel is okay," but you can't, can you? I mean you can but not in any meaningful way that helps even a single person. It's better to have a history, to know why and how that history has been suppressed, not because of some nostalgia or historical LARPing but because of the whole "first as tragedy, then as farce" of it all.

Which is to say that this book is giving me a lot of feels. You should read it, probably.

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April 22nd, 2026 12:00 pm - Interesting Links for 22-04-2026

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April 22nd, 2026 06:23 am - Wednesday's page
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April 22nd, 2026 06:15 am - Amazing Spider-Man #27
 

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tamaranth
April 22nd, 2026 11:00 am - 2026/059: A Legacy of Spies — John Le Carré
2026/059: A Legacy of Spies — John Le Carré

...how much of our human feeling can we dispense with in the name of freedom, would you say, before we cease to feel either human or free? [loc. 3719]

Published in 2017, and very much a post-Brexit novel: at one point Smiley says to Peter Guillam "was it all for England, then? Of course it was... But whose England? Which England? England all alone, a citizen of nowhere? I'm a European."

Told from Peter Guillam's point of view: he's an old man now, retired to his family's farm in Brittany, but he's called back to London to explain his actions during Operation WindfallRead more... )


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