YES. :D :D :D If every moment after the causeway every nerve is SCREAMING that this is the most important person in the world, while everything he knows consciously, subconsciously, ALL that stuff that's in all the other kinds of memory he HAS right then, is going WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS EVEN.
It actually helps explain for me why the guy whose violence is so directed, controlled and brutal in the causeway fight is such an untidy MESS on Insight C, and why his focus is so clearly stopping Steve rather than killing him. I mean seriously: the killer we met blowing up Fury's car would have shot Steve in the head as he came up to the catwalk.
And why the you're my mission stuff and that fight at the end is also such a mess, why it's so clearly focused on basically a screaming tantrum of HIT THE THING THAT IS MAKING ME CRAZY - that's the actions and behaviour of a human whose internal mental chaos has thrown him totally out of control and into pure instinct territory, you know?
Which makes sense if you've got actual episodic-memory flashes plus implicit memory SCREAMING at him and all crashing into both intense conditioning and the fact that, let's be real, Captain America has meant nothing but Badness for the Winter Soldier so far.
(It's also why I assume/write that the whole "end of the line" thing actually predates that memory flashback - in that moment past!Bucky was ALREADY invoking the key phrase of something they'd been telling each other forever, so that as a trigger phrase it basically smashed all that implicit memory stuff hard. You don't really get that from one incident, but you can if it's been dug in, you know?)
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It actually helps explain for me why the guy whose violence is so directed, controlled and brutal in the causeway fight is such an untidy MESS on Insight C, and why his focus is so clearly stopping Steve rather than killing him. I mean seriously: the killer we met blowing up Fury's car would have shot Steve in the head as he came up to the catwalk.
And why the you're my mission stuff and that fight at the end is also such a mess, why it's so clearly focused on basically a screaming tantrum of HIT THE THING THAT IS MAKING ME CRAZY - that's the actions and behaviour of a human whose internal mental chaos has thrown him totally out of control and into pure instinct territory, you know?
Which makes sense if you've got actual episodic-memory flashes plus implicit memory SCREAMING at him and all crashing into both intense conditioning and the fact that, let's be real, Captain America has meant nothing but Badness for the Winter Soldier so far.
(It's also why I assume/write that the whole "end of the line" thing actually predates that memory flashback - in that moment past!Bucky was ALREADY invoking the key phrase of something they'd been telling each other forever, so that as a trigger phrase it basically smashed all that implicit memory stuff hard. You don't really get that from one incident, but you can if it's been dug in, you know?)